The Fictional character Lazurus Long said: "Great is the art of beginning, but greater is the art of ending." I am struck by that as I sit here on New Years Eve writing my first blog entry getting a jump start on my New Years resolution. Sort of anyway! I am alone, all alone, completely alone, no children, friends or dates. Don't feel sorry for me. I planned it that way. It feels good to finally be able to be happy and be alone. That was a long journey; one that feels as if it is coming to an end. How fitting that feels. New Years Eve, a time when we all try to look back and make that half hearted promise to make the new year in some way better than the last. When we all try to let go of things in our lives that drag us down and make it hard to fly, let alone soar. Or if we are feeling brave and full of energy we decide that we will add something positive to our life. Something we think of as a new beginning but in fact is really something that we hope will make it possible for us to discover the ending we are searching to find. Closure as we have all come to call it. What is closure? The art of ending!
The cool thing I have finally embraced is figuring out that I have a bit of control over the ending. I can write whatever ending I want. We all can. I don't need the main or supporting characters of the novel of my life to do anything for me in order for me to determine what the end will be and how the beginning will start. If they have hurt me or if I have hurt them or if I have to say goodbye to someone or if I am betrayed and disappointed by one of them, I can determine how that ending will be written. Do I stay? Do I walk away? Do I forgive? Do I resent? Do I trust? Do I give my heart? Do I let go? It's what we all do every morning that we get up and face the dawn. I am reminded of part of a poem by Kalidasa:
The Bliss of Growth,
The Glory of Action,
The Splendor of Beauty;
For Yesterday is but a Dream,
And Tomorrow is only a Vision;
But Today well lived makes
Every Yesterday a Dream of Happiness,
And every Tomorrow a Vision of Hope.
Look well therefore to this Day!
Such is the Salutation of the Dawn!.
So, as I sit here alone on purpose I know that I am celebrating the ending that I finally wrote and let go of. I am celebrating that ending with a new beginning, this blog, and a few other things I won't mention yet! I know that I can't have it unless I have mastered the art of ending. I am coming to the end of a painful journey and now I am re-sorting my suitcase and jumping on a new path. I hope you come with me! Every yesterday is a dream of happiness and every tomorrow is a vision of hope and I'm finally ready to embrace the dawn. Cheers! Happy New Year, God Bless and see you soon!