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Healing love...

Contributed by: Savannah Fishburn on 2/9/2007

Well I just happen to think that my love and I have an adorable story. His name is Matthew Stout (Matt, Math, math class, baby, handsome, wonderful, sugar bear, sweetie pants...whatever fits).

Matt and I had actually gone to the same High School,and even though he was 3 years older than me it was surprising that we never really knew of each other.

I moved away for college for a year, and the week that I moved back I met Matt at a friend's house. I truly believe we instantly had the greatest connection. I can remember spending time with Matt and some of our friends and just cracking up the entire time. Matt has a demeanor about him that can make anyone feel comfortable just being themselves. I love to laugh, and nobody can get me going like he does...especially when he has little ADD outbursts,it's great!!

So about a year and a half ago I was struggling with a really bad eating disorder, and debating whether to get help or to continue wasting my life away. I went through an extremely tough period of isolation, deep depression and extreme physical and mental illness. Throughout those months I was constantly getting text messages and phone calls from Matt checking on me and seeing how I was doing. Now, I hadn't told any of my friends about my eating disorder...so it was almost as if Matt just knew I wasn't doing ok.

My texts back were always that I was just busy, and of course, "I'm doing great!" One day I decided to let him know what was going on with me because it just didn't feel right lying to him, and his response was nothing but true care and concern for me and my health.

We had coffee a few times and Matt always wanted details of what I was going through, and what type of help I was thinking about. I shocked myself so much with how open I was from the very beginning of our talks with him, I held nothing back.

I started playing with the idea of going into a treatment center for help, but was terrified of what that meant. All of my fears were expressed to Matt, which in turn turned into realizations of what I needed to stay alive.

In May of 2006 I entered a partial hospitalization program at The Eating Disorder Center of Denver. On Sundays, we had multi-family group sessions, where information about eating disorders was brought to attention, and family members amd friends could express their concerns and fears. The second Sunday, I remember being so nervous to ask Matt to come with me because of how intimate these setting would get and plus I was telling everyone in treatment with me that he was my soul mate! Embarrassing much?!

Matt was so up for coming, he made me feel so important...especially for being just friends. In session, Matt would talk about how I am one of the most wonderful people he has ever met, and how he cares so much about my recovery and my health. Almost every Sunday for the three months I lived at the treatment center,Matt was there supporting me and my recovery and learning about who I was and what I was going through.

Towards the end of my stay at the center I was seeing more and more of Matt, hanging out at his place almost nightly just sitting outside talking for hours! I have never in my life felt so intimate and attracted to somebody without anything physical present. I learned about his life and who he truly was outside of our friends, which is someone not everyone has the pleasure of knowing so I am really lucky. There was a night were a bunch of us were out, and when we returned home, Matt and I were lying in his bed talking and he gave me a card. It was filled with the sweetest words anybody has ever said to me, and I just couldn't handle not showing him how special he was to me.
So I said, "So, are you gonna kiss me now or what?" haha!

He was so shocked and said, "What? really? I'd love to...." and that was our first kiss!

We talked about how excited we were that we were going to try dating, and that it would be slow since I just got out of treatment.

But regardless of taking it slow, my heart wanted nothing to do with that and jumped right in! We have been really in love for such a long time. Before we were dating we would say I love you, in a friendly way...but stopped for the sake of it meaning something more now but sometimes I would slip and tell him and he'd get all cute and I'd blush and hit him and say I didn't mean it haha!

So, now we have been together for six months andseven days. I can honestly say it has been quite a journey through extreme up's and down's of all kind...and I have never been happier in my entire life.

We can talk our way through anything, with honesty and healthy communication. It sounds nice and pretty, but it's really hard and it is so worth every second of it at the end when you know that other person truly understands you and has such loyalty to the commitment you two have chosen.

And as much as we have shared with one another, I learn something adorable and funny about him daily. Matt is my favorite person to be around, regardless of what were doing. He could be watching football, and I'm right there on his lap falling asleep while he plays with my hair. Or were out to dinner and can't even order because were laughing and figuring out how we can share haha! I am head over heels in love with Matt for all that he has shown me about life, about how I can have a gorgeous curvy body, about how I am #1 in my life...nobody else, about how every feeling I have is validated, about how nobody else can complete me because I am a strong woman, and about how having a healthy, loving relationship with somebody you care so deeply about is life altering.

Matt saved my life in so many ways, and I don't feel like he fully realizes that...because his heart is just that big and full of unselfish love and loyalty. And I get the pleasure of being his one and only baby girl.


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Submitted By: Brendan Leonard
posted on 2/12/2007 @ 5:42:03 PM
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Awesome story, Savannah.
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Submitted By: Travis Henry
posted on 2/9/2007 @ 5:42:55 PM
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Wow. Sounds like you guys are made for each other. Make sure to post your engagement announcement!
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Savannah Fishburn

Thornton , CO

Savannah Fishburn has posted 1 story and 0 comments since joining on 2/9/2007. Savannah Fishburn 's average story rating is 5.
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