http://denver.yourhub.comThe latest blog posts in The Denver Newspaper Agency YourHub.comen-usnews@yourhub.com(c) 2009, YourHub.com5So. I have a game face.Yeah. I put it on every morning before I go to work. I pull it on with my turtle neck sweater and a pair of underwear that I haven't bled in. I threw all those out on Saturday. You know, the underwear that you are wearing when you realize you are bleeding while pregnant and...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~383368.aspx10/26/2007 11:28:58 AMAshley Kingsley For anyone who has suffered a miscarriage or would like to support someone that has I highly recommend the book ' Luscious Lemon' by Heather Swain. About She's finally seeing the fruits of her labors. Chef Ellie "Lemon" Manelli's hip East Village bistro is suddenly all the rage; Lemo...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~325613.aspx6/22/2007 8:08:47 PMAshley Kingsley Wow! What a surprise! I was feeling just down right strange! I asked my husband Bob if we could stop by the store and get a pregnancy test on the way home just in case! We had been shopping all day and I was feeling like I had never felt before. I peed on the stick because that is wha...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~322715.aspx6/16/2007 12:57:48 AMAshley Kingsley Doctor Doolittle It has occurred to me while writing some of these posts how totally messed up my experiences have been with Doctors and Nurses over the course of my adult life. I look back through the window of my past and see many dismal visits to the Doctors office where I was told in m...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~322714.aspx6/16/2007 12:50:52 AMAshley Kingsley I wonder if therapy is useful. It seems that I just go, verbally vomit all over the place as fast as I can because I am on the clock. It is the most expensive vomitting I have ever done except when I use to spend a ton of money when I went out drinking. Tonight I had therapy and felt n...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~322713.aspx6/16/2007 12:49:53 AMAshley Kingsley I dream....I dream in color... When I was pregnant I dreamt of picnics and babies... nursing and names. I even felt my dreams- I could touch them and they had tactile feelings. I could feel the grass I sat on with my baby. I could touch the sky and pinch the clouds. I could hear in ...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~322712.aspx6/16/2007 12:48:00 AMAshley Kingsley All I see some days are strollers. Pregnant women ready to POP. I turn the corner and I see one after the other after the other. They are everywhere! I feel vacant. Like an old motel on a deserted road, late in the night, with a sign that reads "VACANT" in neon pink. The "T" on VA...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~322711.aspx6/16/2007 12:47:00 AMAshley Kingsley I just hope. I hope for good timing. A round belly. A healthy pregnancy. A bouncing baby. I do hope. Though, I have moments, even days where hope is strained and pessimism sets in like a flu. I hope for a chance to be a Mom and to see my husband as a Dad. What two greater honors are there in ...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~322710.aspx6/16/2007 12:45:51 AMAshley Kingsley I can't help avoid my pregnant friends. I have two friends who are pregnant right now and I cannot even go near them, let alone call, write or even answer the phone when they call. Selfish? Absolutely. But I can't help it. I honestly can't. They are succeeding where I didn'...http://denver.yourhub.com/Lakewood/Blogs/Archive/Blog~322709.aspx6/16/2007 12:44:24 AMAshley Kingsley